William's Surrender

Plagued for many years.

A person who lives in his wallowed barred wall of regret

Remorse yet still waiting upon.

Loving him with a vengeance,

Laden with numbed trepidation and fear.

Hollowed and unwilling to read  or write between the lines.

The words speak-easy

Sealed with a shallow kiss, parlayed upon.

Self mutilation, destruction and waning.

Across a half century.

The infantile still wanting to be fed with formula or milk.

Pressing upon false hope

I seal the letter

Yearning into the wind

Please

This time

Let it be so

I put up the red flag

Against the wood

And I wait

Another yester year has passed

Maybe just maybe this time...

It  Will be different

I grieve a silent homage

For my brother.